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give in too easily, she would ignore them. She prayed her body didn t
betray her too much and let them know they made her burn for their
touch. But then she remembered she d just begged them to love her.
God, she was such a fool. She couldn t even hide how they made her
feel.
You can tell us anything. You are going to have to learn not to lie
to us, Flick, Luke stated.
Felicity felt her heart clench as Luke inadvertently called her a
liar. She remembered when she was small how she had accidentally
broken one of her aunt s precious vases. She had accused Felicity of
breaking it on purpose and had punished her by sending her to her
room without supper. The memory was a catalyst, and her emotions
bubbled to the surface. She bit her lower lip, drawing more blood as
she tried to hold back emotions she d buried for years.
Fuck, sweetheart, stop biting yourself. You re bleeding, Billy
stated.
Felicity didn t want concern for her welfare from them. She
wanted to stay angry, knowing if they were to show her any form of
sympathy she would break. She was so highly strung, and her
muscles, tight, clenched, felt ready to snap from the least bit of
provocation. She didn t want them to show any emotions at all. The
touch of a gentle finger swiping the blood from her chin and lip sent
her over the edge. She felt tears begin to leak from the corner of her
eyes. The more she tried to stop them, the faster they fell. Her chest
and throat felt tight, and she was having trouble breathing. There was
a huge lump in her throat, and her heart was racing, pounding against
the wall of her chest. Her heart skipped a beat then slammed twice as
fast as it should have. She felt pain below her sternum, her life muscle
leaping and pounding. The feeling scared the shit out of her, making
her wonder if she was having a heart attack. The keening of a tortured
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voice sounded loudly in her ears. She wanted to cover them and block
the sound out, but couldn t seem to move her arms. She tried to curl
herself into a fetal position, trying to hold herself together, but
couldn t seem to manage it.
Felicity knew she was falling apart, but couldn t seem to stop
herself from splintering into a million pieces. She had been numb for
so long, working herself into the ground, using her work to keep
herself together. She finally realized she was the one making those
horrible sounds. She had somehow managed to curl her body into
itself as her mind and heart fell apart. She couldn t stop the sobs
wracking her body or the tears streaming down her face. She didn t
want to feel again. She d tried to push her feelings and emotions to
the back of her mind until she performed daily tasks in automation.
She had been a breathing robot, not a female human being.
She was in her own private living hell, and the black hole was so
deep she didn t think she would ever be able to climb out of it.
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Billy, go call Doc. Tell him to hurry, Tom said in a tortured
voice. He felt so helpless not being able to get through to Felicity. He
saw the same tortured expressions on his brother s and friend s faces
as well. They had no idea what was going on and no idea how to help
their woman. They had never seen a woman so broken, in so much
pain. He helped remove Felicity s restraints and watched Luke cover
her with a blanket, his hands clenched into fists, his knuckles white.
Billy was back in seconds, and Tom watched his brother open his
mouth to speak, stop, and clear his throat several times before he
managed to form any words. Doc, ten minutes.
Tom kept glancing at his watch. Every second felt like an hour.
Every minute felt like a day. He walked over to Felicity and picked
her up into his arms. He placed her on his lap and held her against
him as he rocked her. He wasn t sure who he was trying to comfort
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more. He was torn up inside, seeing his woman in such a state, and
hoped like hell they hadn t been the cause of such pain.
Tom saw Luke run to the door when he heard Doc pull up. He d
had his ears trained to listen for the man. His friend led Doc into the
bedroom and stood back against the wall beside him, his muscles tight
with fear that he, his brother, and his friend were the reason for
Felicity s condition. He wanted to slam his fist into the walls, hurt
himself for the pain their little woman was feeling, but knew to do so
wouldn t make him feel any better. He, Luke, and Billy watched Doc
administer a shot into Felicity s arm after swabbing her flesh with an
alcohol wipe. He took her blood pressure then listened to her heart.
He saw the frown form on Doc s face as the elderly man moved his
stethoscope over her chest, then back to the region of her heart once
more. He watched Doc lift her hand, turn it over so he could access
the pulse point on her wrist, and time the beat of her heart against the
second hand of his watch. Doc didn t move for a long time. He just
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